Whole LOTA Love

Deanne Brown

10 years ago, six of us forty-something women went out on a limb and started our own rock band. There was only one glitch. Not one of us could play an instrument. But that didn’t stop us. We bought guitars and a bass, replaced the couch and coffee table with drums, amps and a PA system, and hired Coldplay's lead singer Chris Martin’s very talented doppelganger to teach us how to play. Twice a week, we left the dishes and laundry behind, stealing a few precious moments away from our “shoulds and ought to’s” to follow our soul and play some rock ’n’ roll. We practiced until we had blisters on top of blisters and that up-up-down-up pattern was ingrained in our brains. Our kids thought we were nuts. But playing music brought me a sense of well-being and peace. It also got me through one of the most difficult times of my life; cancer. It's been proven that music can help heal the body. I believed it helped heal mine. I have to admit, it took some courage to first get on stage and perform in front of people. But my courage to sing on stage didn't just happen. It was a choice! And we all have that choice. The first time I chose to sing into a microphone, my words were barely audible. I pulled a Jim Morrison, turning my back to the crowd. My heart was racing, my palms were sweating, and that stupid little voice in my head kept saying, “What the hell are you doing Deanne? Who are you to think you are a singer? A musician? Thank my lucky stars I didn’t listen to that little voice, because I wouldn't have had the experience of playing shows and fundraisers with my girlfriends all over the state of California and Arizona for the last decade. I've heard people say, “I don’t have a creative bone in my body.” This is an absurd statement. We are all creative beings; every last one of us. It is in our nature; wired into our DNA. We were each born with the incredible ability to make something out of nothing; to express ourselves, to sing, to write, to paint, to sculpt, to build a cathedral, to create. Whatever it is that gets you excited and out of bed each day. As Pablo Picasso once said, “Every child is an artist. The problem is staying an artist when you grow up.”